Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV
Last week, I broke a bone in my foot. Again! For the third time actually. Yes, apparently, I inherited some clumsy genes. Thankfully, no surgery is required and the bone is already beginning to heal.
The last several days have been tough in so many ways. If you’ve ever spent time on crutches, you know the first few days can be very painful as every muscle in your body gets used to carrying your weight in a different way. Then there is the balancing act that you need to do for the most basic tasks. If I had good balance at the best of times, I probably wouldn’t have broken three bones in the last 7 years, but now I need to hop on one foot to dress, shower and use the washroom.
When my daughter was three, she often said, “I do it myself, Mommy”. Ironically, we heard “I can’t do it!” just as often. That is exactly the way I feel right now. Unable to walk easily and navigate the stairs in my home, there is so much that I want and need to be able to do that I find myself melting down in the middle of the kitchen just like that tiny three-year-old.
I don’t know what it is, but asking for help has always been incredibly difficult for me. These broken bones have been humbling experiences for me. Slowly, over the last few years, I have had to admit that I cannot do everything on my own. God has been showing me that pride is an obstacle in my life, not just when I am walking on crutches, but in other areas of my life as well. Learning to rely on others and especially on Him has been an important part in my growth as a Christian woman. In fact, I’m finding that letting others do things for me is very freeing. It doesn’t mean I’m weak, a bad mother or an unsupportive wife. Instead, it allows me to focus on the things I can do well. God has given us friends and family for a reason.
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 NIV
My dependence on others, this week, has made me think about how often we act the same way in our relationship with the Lord. We often try to take the reins, attempting to do it our own way, unwilling to admit that He is in full control of every situation. Of course, this means we often end up in situations we didn’t expect, sometimes dealing with undesirable consequences. The good news is, we can rely on His strength to get us through those too.
What are you trying to do on your own? Can you ask for help? Can you lean on the Lord and allow Him to take you through in His strength?